love life

Hayy! I got myself so depressed when I was in my hometown about 2 months ago. People keep asking me, gossiping me..all about my love life. So for those who are really curious about my love life, here's the update! But please, don't make this post as your gossip headline!!! Thousand of pleases.

Okay, I'm now perfectly single but definitely not available. I doing good for being single, really! For some reasons, I'm not going to date anyone now. But I'm emphasizing that I'm not available as well, for sure! Honestly, I have someone who always have me smiling when I'm thinking of him. So if I couldn't have him, I'd rather be alone. I'm not available.

For all the chit-chaters around the world! Mostly those in Medan, the issues and gossips city..My love life is nothing to do with you all.
I'm not dating my best friend!
I'm not dating my-ex.
And definitely I'm not dating a girl. =)

Apparently, I'll spend this coming valentine with my mom. Yes, poor me =(. But mom is always better than anyone, except him. No worries, there'll be another hundreds of valetines for us to be spent together ♥

for a better life

I should have been making some changes by now, but really it wasn't that easy to change something you have been accustomed to. I really need a change or I'll be left behind for worse. This semester will be tough, most of my seniors keep reminding that it will take some efforts to worth it. I don't really mind to waste my napping or lazying time for study as long as the result does worth my sacrifices. I realized I really need to left my lazy lifestyle after 4 months holiday. Enough!! I need to be responsible to my study and lots of other things that my parents demand me to do. And I won't accomplised anything by playing around and wasting time on bed.

I wasn't really a lazy type of person. I always want things to be perfect and excellent. I always want everything to be well scheduled and organized. And I'm still that kind of person. Just only after few months of holiday, I got myself too relaxed and idled. =(

Anw, I just realized that I shopped a lot recently. I was actually studying abroad but I got more than 30 pairs of shoes here. I wonder how could I move that stuffs back to hometown later. I need lots lots lots of changes!

♥ No late sleep
♥ No oversleeping!
♥ No unnecessary shopping.
♥ Stop wasting money
♥ Stop lazying =)

Hopefully I could accomplished those simple things at first point. And I'll do things better next time ♥

little changes

I got my life all the same like last year. I spent most of my time lazying all day long. However, something forces me to think a lot recently. Things tend to push me so hard and I got so depressed. When one thing starts to get better, another problem pops up and let me so down again. It has always been like this over the time and I tried to get along with it all the time.

Anyway, I'm considering of some little changes. I realize I did nothing to make things better so probably from now on, I really need a time to think, to act and to decide!

So mom is still staying with me in this big big house. She'll be going back soon on 16th and I'll be all alone. I was thinking that I'll get more space when she's not here but I guess I'm wrong. I enjoy the time spent with her. The best thing is..I could take care of her every minutes. I admit I miss the time gathering with the whole family where my brothers will annoy me so much and my dad would possibly yell at me again and again. I also miss 'kakak' at home, even sometimes I got so mad with her. Last but not least, my grandma.. I really miss the time she used to tuck me into bed =).

a game only has a winner

I wasn't trying to bring an issue of man's bad attitude and behavior to this blog. I remembered the night before I left for KL, I was so mad right after I send my aunt to a hospital. It really doesn't make sense to end up a life for a man, isn't it? And why man tend to cheat often? Did the consequences ever come to their mind? I didn't tell that women don't cheat men but apparently, women do act with feelings! And unfortunately, often forgot every logical senses. I keep wishing man could appreciate what woman did for the family. And curse those f*cking man-with-low-gratitude! ...So things are still the same after a week I left. I'll be so grateful if those things could be settled as soon as possible. I wish!

Lots of things happen lately and some push me out of my comfort zone. I have no idea of what is happening but I'm trying to figure out some little changes. I'm really not accustomed to such condition and I don't want things to end-up like a game. If it has to end-up like a game, the winner should be me, only me!

back to town!

I caught the early flight back to KL this morning. And I'm extremely exhausted since I didn't get enough sleep last night. The first thing after arrival, I had a thorough cleaning session and get some rest. But then I got so bored during the night, everyone hasn't get back to KL and I'm all alone =(. Luckily my mom came over to stay with me for about 2 weeks. We plan to go to Singapore for a lil bit fun.

Anyway, one of my relatives was having a bad time and got so sicked. She might be facing a very tough time right now and probably she's gonna need more than pills or injection. I thought a family is what she needs the most. I wish she would be okay in no time.

...okay. I'm quite bored with the blogging things.