loud inside my head

I think what hurts the most, is when you give your all to someone. Through thick and thin you're there for them. You stick with them, no matter what. Then one day, they just give up on you. They won't even fight for you. The one thing you would never have done, they did with no hesitation.

best birthday gift.

Goodnight apples ! I own the whole night to myself doing nothing, was planning to change my blog header during my free time but I'm too lazy to do any editing at the moment. Instead, I browsed through tumblr and found massive adorable pictures. Apparently, I did a lot of browsing lately since I don't get much to do after work. Yes, I've settled for a permanent job with my dad since a month ago where my job description comprises almost everything in it. As dad is pretty strained recently with one of his employee committed embezzlement, he deliberately let me taking over most of his job which means more responsibility on my part. Honestly, I love my job and workplace so much. Bet I learnt a lot more than what I could possibly obtained out there. Dad being my mentor is one of the best things I'm grateful of, he has been very patient, wise, inspirational, and motivating all this time. Always thought that working with dad could be such a pain in the ass but he proved me wrong. I get the chance of meeting new people, lobbying big bosses, practicing my mandarin skill, flying overseas on a business trip, and not to mention, the thrill of receiving my first salary !

So we (dad and I) were planning on starting another new business apart from what we're doing now because he thinks that if we're capable of doing more, why not. And I'm gonna board on a plane to China this upcoming April to serve that purpose, woohoo. My relationship with dad aren't about job at all pieces, he actually spend few hours everyday to listen to stories about my personal relationship with boys, my future plan, my super-chaotic life back in China, my opinion on tiles' color for our new house, and bla bla bla. Ohh, he even remembered my Chinese birthday today of which I wasn't aware about it myself. Thanks mom and dad, you guys are my greatest birthday gift ever since I was born. And just when I was typing this post about him, he entered my room just to check if I'm asleep, how can I not love love love him?

inhaling, exhaling

There has been a lot of hitches going on in my workplace while I'm not even there for exactly one month yet. I saw how people could be so corrupted, manipulated, dishonored, and degraded in so many ways. Anything dealt with office stuff aren't meant to be spilled here so I couldn't mention much. Anyhow, if somebody feel really sorry for whatever mistake they did and willing to make a better change then I shall give them a second try for an improved upshot in future, with any luck.

happy kid is home.

Unlike my super fun living in Shanghai, being back in Medan is a whole lot of torments. But who am I to complain? I've lived enough privileges and luxuries these years, and everyone seems to agree I should live the conversed phase of life starting from my late 21. Speaking of age, I'm turning 22 next month which is a sad thing to celebrate. Since I flew back here month ago, I've made myself busy with running errands for mom and dad, hanging out with friends, focusing on work stuff and spending time with brother who apparently has only 3 more days to spend here. I can't imagine here comes the time I'm finally gonna stick and stay in Medan for a long long time. Good to know I finally get to wake up in my own room, having conversation with my parents everyday, my very own car to drive here and there, someone doing my laundry and cleaning but I miss my old life that much I wanna go back to Shanghai or Beijing or KL. I wouldn't mind waking up in an apartment room, taking cab to everywhere, or even doing my own laundry. I can do an endless whining if I need to, phew.

But anyways, life is life. As much as I dislike the way it turns out, I'm living it so I shall save it a vigor. It's a blow that I even have time to regularly update my blog since I'm so foolishly free. Believe it or not, I have those times to actually check on everyone's facebook page or interesting blogs or twitter accounts, I'm a trained stalker may you all beware.

hell-o-bitches